it may seem that I'm the most free person to be doing anything now.
As much as that seems, there's much ado to work, trainings, etc..
I need cash, need time, need practice.
Cash.
Had not been getting an income from work for close to 2months now.. And to pay for those transport costs, the occasional overseas trip and recently and the policy that i hold..
I'm still flying 'alright' now.. but i dont want to see myself hitting solid bottom soon.
I need a Job, Anyone got any to intro, esp IT fair. pls rsvp. thanks!
Time.
Every week's almost by default. I got my project meetings to go through, the trainings to attend. And the one thing i hate the most is to be LATE! despite all those notices i put up all over my room and alarm clock. i always tend to wake up late or just be late. I need to get a big clock that rings every half hour..
Next up is the priorities, this is always a headache as I'm always the kind that likes to do things in a sit-on-the-fence methodology. To weigh which is more define, I'm usually lost in the fog.
Practice.
WW trip & climbing trip are coming up. Seeing my friends doing well, that sorts of create a benchmark for me to want to catch up to. You do trainings so that you wont suffer when in reality right.. sigh, i dont want to get into some deep shit when in Malaysia.. But my learning curve is just an exponential, takes a looong time to get to the top; time which is running dry..
To not think is to run away.
or have i been too comfortable??
I tell my students: Look at where you want to go, keep looking, your body will bring you there.
There's really quite a fair bit of workload to clear.
haha, graduating doesnt gives you the ticket to freedom also.
But does gives you the thin privilege of where u can still blend into student society in campus yet gain significance influence with the top brass. haha.
Many things start falling into picture for me now, going thru some of that thought process.
Monetary issues, Plans, etc..
Life is really quite short.
Hitting 20 + 2, am still missing that something.
a taste, a slice of the forbidden fruit, of sharing, of giving.
and i'm very glad at the end of the day i pass out my group of students with a smile on their face. that they've gained some knowledge from me, I've gained some of the enthusiasm from them.
Which was what's truly satisfying about.
I took away some, I give back more.
Cheers ppl! and thanks many to my friends, fellow coaches, and WV staff that helped me mould my building blocks.
also.
Hopping across the causeway always drops me a big surprise.
HAHA.
first thing, the design of the stupid up-ram two-lane, itself was a MAJOR architecture fail.
second thing, they choose of ALL times to dig up ONE of the lanes during the evening rush.
WOA, superb really superb.
and the 170 bus driver is one fucking impatient driver. which's kinda cool in some sense.
Just back from watching Germany - Argentina match at some coffeeshop.
though a neutral party, felt that Germany's game play was awesome & neat..
4 -1
Ghana was up rooted last night, wad a tragic loss.. oh well, champions 2014!! :)
first time watching a soccer match at coffee shop too, hahas, the atmosphere was warm, even though we had our fair share of views being blocked by the random beer girl or being irritated by the old uncle who decides that he needs to get blood flow to his legs..
Hair is a cuii state now.
didnt get the usual hair dresser to do it for me as she was busy.. then came some new aunty, it looked alright when i left the place.. but now.. sucks man.. its halfway between crew cut and short..
idiot :(
On more thoughts..
i hate it to see dad being pushed around by mom.. dread it more when they start shouting..
sighh.. just felt that dad is being too much a big nice guy already, so much so its getting to be like what she says are right..
I really want to help, but i dunno how.. some part of me just didnt want to hurt her.. but if i dont, how else can i make her 'realized..' its like the hard way or no way.. i dun want to start some silent treatment too.. sighh
Sundays used to be so much a day to look forward to, when there is cooking and watching tv.. these things just doesnt seem to happen now.
