Day after day
Time passed away
And I just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows, I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can't find
The courage to show to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out
But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me? .....

Westlife - If i let you go...

somehow those lyrics rhyme with my thoughts.
sigh, its a crossroad again.
Uni admissions gpa are cut-throat!
Maybe its just part of the inner asian culture in us to compete and thrive to be top of the food chain. But hey why slog yourself like a bull when you dun enjoy what u're doing!
i dunno but its just this great stereotyping in our society that labels higher education as more capable and dependent, other sense educated.
they are talks about change & stuff, but i guess to remove that prejudice its gona be an uphill task. really.
Me too, i'm stuck in this cycle, aka tradition/tried & tested. One hand its deciding on uni application (which is a demoralizing thing to look at) & the other, a happy path enjoy wad i would like doing; travel, outdoors, transport, aircraft..

*deep sigh... still got abt 3 weeks to think, now haha its still the fyp report and the other tests & assignments' deadlines to ponder..
*hais, getting older alr.

Speaking of happiness, i'm happy now; Glad that i recovered from my fever and headache which crippled me the last two days, battling sore throat now. That's the end result for being under the sun and not drinking water. Weather's damn damn bad now, wearing black is a no-no and the heat is GOSH! buai tahan!
oh side track, hahas. ya i'm still not that 'happy'.. its tis window period that i have now else its going to be another 2 years to add to the current 19 of me myself and I.
i mean hey, looking at ur frens taking the step out and hitching up, envious can that be cus i haven been able to experience that.
A fren once told me: if u dun try u'll nv noe how to deal w it...
sigh. pray hope the acorn drops on my head soon, i dun wan to be a 40 year old moldy rice sack ya..

CNY's soon too.
hadnt bought anything. haha.
i think i need more tshirts/polo tees and berms ahh.. more practical but maybe one shirt lor.

damn lots of tests coming up. control esp the tough.
and FYP interview on monday!

wordy post, & shall end with music from coldplay!
partial influence fr sean and ZW for playing that piece over and over.