it may seem that I'm the most free person to be doing anything now.
As much as that seems, there's much ado to work, trainings, etc..
I need cash, need time, need practice.
Cash.
Had not been getting an income from work for close to 2months now.. And to pay for those transport costs, the occasional overseas trip and recently and the policy that i hold..
I'm still flying 'alright' now.. but i dont want to see myself hitting solid bottom soon.
I need a Job, Anyone got any to intro, esp IT fair. pls rsvp. thanks!
Time.
Every week's almost by default. I got my project meetings to go through, the trainings to attend. And the one thing i hate the most is to be LATE! despite all those notices i put up all over my room and alarm clock. i always tend to wake up late or just be late. I need to get a big clock that rings every half hour..
Next up is the priorities, this is always a headache as I'm always the kind that likes to do things in a sit-on-the-fence methodology. To weigh which is more define, I'm usually lost in the fog.
Practice.
WW trip & climbing trip are coming up. Seeing my friends doing well, that sorts of create a benchmark for me to want to catch up to. You do trainings so that you wont suffer when in reality right.. sigh, i dont want to get into some deep shit when in Malaysia.. But my learning curve is just an exponential, takes a looong time to get to the top; time which is running dry..
To not think is to run away.
or have i been too comfortable??
I tell my students: Look at where you want to go, keep looking, your body will bring you there.
Why cant i tell my mind to do that?
