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problems of late

2012-01-29T01:48:00.001+08:00

yes i still cant run, bored and soulless. running used to be my way of reliving frustrations and stress, now that i cant, i hope typing it out might be good for the soul.

sigh, been having a fair bit of mood swings recently. maybe its because of my back issues leaving me very quick tempered and not in the mood to socialise. tsk tsk no good no good.. Maybe its that I'm one that's always out and about; and just about recently people around me start to get busy.. so there's this energy around and no where to release it, owing to the start of me not able to run and do stuff.. welcoming frustrations.. sometimes I wished I could be in love; at least i get to be occupied, got someone to lean on, just Doing stuff.. every time this topic appears, all i could comment on is people's experience, my perspective, facts from the net, etc. Frustrating to hear and see so much, yet not been able to taste it..
*fingers crossed mate.

been also thinking about the future. Yes, procrastination leads you to davy jones! Back in poly, i used to think that 'heng, still got 2 yrs in NS to consider what to do.." but hor, in NS, this brain matter is practically frozen in time.. all i would think about is when book-out, when time-off.. studies and stuff are like locked and i've thrown away the key. fast forward and its 7months to go, and it seemed as though i've went to the north pole, came back and realised iphone4 had been launched.
its saddening that our society permits only a paper-or-dont-talk principle. Does studying so much make you a better person? Its just memorising and doing TenYearSeries, why dont we just get a computer instead? And that if one is not a paper holder, its almost certain the high paying jobs are out of your radar.. with cost of living aiming of the sky. how to survive when pay is not reciprocal to this increase? no wonder everyone's chasing the paper, studying for the sake of survival no longer a system where learning is based on one's curiosity, one's passion.. :(
to those that are not good memory machines, they naturally dont make the cut for subsised local universities. leaving private universities the alternative way to survive, but squeezing alot from your already drying pocket, plus rising cost of living. its an uphill struggle upon graduation indeed.
Change would be good. and in an urgent need to fast track. Everything from hiring to society as a whole. Currently, despite all. things are still largely modeled on the past, where the basics of starting up a country.. engineering, banking, medical.. but now that we've become first world, focus should be shared with things such as arts, science and sports.. everything in this sector is still pertaining to the thinking of 'if i do like this, how would we look, got money to gain?, dont have then throw'... back to money and glory again and paper chase. instead there should be a 'fall down and its okay try again' attitude, the process and people developer the importance. everyone's a leader in someway dont they? so focus on the people, not the economy! pls.

its time this society needs to step out of her shadow of the past. paint a smile again on people's face..

apologise if the thoughts are all over the place. but am in desperate need to get them out of this head uh..

龙年快乐！

2012-01-24T23:27:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year Folks!

Living up optimism that this year would be a good year for the horses in terms of love; but i gotta be more patient in terms of health, more cautious in spending and also building better human r/s..
some of the things i would need to drill some discipline to adhere strictly to.

and yes optimism. lots of it. an irony though as i'm constantly frustrated about my back issues.. it hurts really bad when the weather is cold, or when exposed to fan or aircon for too long.. sucks to know; but on the up side the pain isnt as pain as it was sometime back. so to the ppl i've been giving a long face to, i seek your forgiveness!

booking into camp tomorrow with a long heart too. sigh.
and i do kinda hope the predictions for the year is true. for I would really like to experience the meaning of love, carrying another's problem & solving them..
hehe. cheers matey. to good health and fortune.

2011-12-29T01:03:00.000+08:00

missing those times.

2011-12-26T23:15:00.000+08:00

Now the question is to down pes anot?

a month later, my status is gonna be up. and there's no way i will still be able to do parade and run around.. unless of course miracle happens.. and the sad reality is that chiropractic is not recognized by Mindef.
seeing the chiropractic doctor has its ups and downs, some days i feel the pain easing and on others its just pain.. very much my spine feels like the subject of a science experiment. waking up each day is like filing a report.. At times, its just pure frustration indeed; the feeling of being trapped in a spot, in a prison cell.
Then again, this whole episode is teaching me the value of being patient, anger management.. perhaps its just a test for me? mind vs body?

I really hope i get to wake up from this "dream" soon.. seriously, fighting hard to paint a smile on the face is not the way to go indeed.

deja vuu

2011-12-14T08:49:00.000+08:00

Growing up, had always thought of myself as being lucky. That when I do activities, never had to deal with sprained legs, broken bones, fracture, nothing extravagant. Only the occasional cuts and bruises. Was envious of friends that got hurt along the way and even had thoughts of myself to be injured, to be hospitalised..
Then, 2011. My luck ran out and what I did saw was deja vuu indeed. The year I turned 21, the key to adulthood, my prime.

Its frustrating to cope with this pain, and to root of it all, denied ability to do what you want. Also comes the stress of being accountable to it all. I'm really tired; constantly question myself what to do, how to do..

Then comes the part of treatment, conventional vs non conventional.. Having my thoughts initially fixed on surgery getting it over and done with in a month, the conventional approach. But I'm scared of getting under the knife and also the bloody risks aft it. It may also lead to complications and relapse too.. Hais, that's one. And the other's the non conventional, chiropractic; which attempts to solve the issue at the root of it all. But, its a foggy path ahead and that I really gotta put trust in the physician and convincing the army.

Sigh, may 2012 be a better year please. Let me ord, let me go travel.

help

2011-12-08T14:05:00.000+08:00

I really need that guiding hand now.. tell me what to do, how to go about it?

Stuck in the middle or dilemma literally. Not letting people down can be my forte and can be my murder, something I try hard to not have the former. Yet with this current depictment, I'm constantly forced into that corner. It really sucks to know that your friends are out there working hard, yet me being bounded by this nonchalant medical agreement. Its justifiable that you're the one that needs rest here, but with a pain that comes and go, doesn't exist in plain sight, and me doubting its existence at all ; its just pure mind blowing frustrations.

I hate people calling me a bummer, useless, chaokeng. Truth is that I'm not and I just don't know what and how to react in this situation of mine. Today I am be well, but that doesn't mean that god damn pain will not come knocking tonight.
Then there's the question of why continue doing those outdoor activities of yours given your injuries? Answer, yes I do feel pain doing them and against the doctor's advice. But they give me the temporary release from all that stress, and seriously not exercise at all! What am I going to do, sit around grow mold and grow fat? I also hate to see the hardwork I've worked hard to build before I enlist come tumbling down like a deck of cards. And lastly, not letting my friends there down too.

Which comes back to a whole continuous cycle... Army, family, doctor, friends. So frustrating.
I heard national service likes to take your weakest point, throw it into the open and let the sun tear at it. Is that what's going on now? Pls tell me if I can see the end of my tunnel or at least a tiny ray of light.

To live

2011-11-26T22:27:00.000+08:00

"To Move, To Breathe, To Fly, To Float,
To Gain while you give,
To Roam the roads or lands remote.
To Travel is to Live..."
Hans Christian Andersen

well said.

48 points

2011-11-24T20:27:00.000+08:00

sad. angst. and yes m newly acquired swear word.. Bollocks to you god damn tester.
killed my excitement of driving all together. Drove slow and followed all those "steps" to suit the test, yet i got scalded for not doing the opposite... Its really so confusing! and there's the constant steep price tag of $20 for test, $50 for license, $45 for lessons, $30 for circuit, $240 for test package. Pay so much for all these unnecessary costs, yet the construction never stops, traffic issues are still present.
sigh. this gahmen is just so damn money obsessed. perhaps they should be the one going for problem gambling gatherings..

there's also the pain that had plagued for yet so long. will this year's stand chart marathon be my swansong?
probably another railway line is being constructed on my forehead already..

so need a break. from all this.

那些年錯過的愛情

2011-11-14T15:13:00.000+08:00

那些年，我們一起追的女孩

"what if" "I could" have done more to pursue that dream?
and you.

Jai guru deva om

2011-11-07T13:21:00.000+08:00

Lost thoughts.
so many has plagued me.

faithfully

2011-10-10T22:29:00.000+08:00

oh girl, you're still on my mind. faithfully.

Key to the world

2011-10-09T15:18:00.000+08:00

the common saying of hitting 21st is attaining "the key to the world"; something i'd wished for in the tender years, then again now when its here, so do a long slew of responsibilities and a hedge haze or labyrinth of passageways to decipher and conquer..

i've decided to do away with the pomp and ceremonies of a birthday gathering, opting for something quaint and quiet with the ones that gave me life.
Choosing for a short hop to kl and melaka for the occasion. which turns out to be a little of a regret as it didnt hit its objective of quaint and quiet either. Both cities had to deal with a whole lot of walking, something my folks cant catch up on; ideologies to holidaying varies as well... i really should have given more thought to this.

starting on the wrong foot, yeah literally.. had its bane. plaguing me with some serious bad news of a possible disc injury.. angst and shock kick in as this was some serious shit which could throw me out of action in the near future. it arrived as a shock initially then it soon became anger as i was angry with myself how could this happen.. several hiccups along the way added a few other tons on the already packed load i'm carrying.

visiting grandma in the hospital today also left me leaving with a heavy heart. Solidity reminding me of the importance of loving, living and laughing out loud. and opened my mind to the thoughts of financial independence; Things which i would really need to discipline myself to plan for.

this chapter started with a low, but the funny thing about being low is that a high is never too far away. I hope the chaps in the crow's nest would be able to spot it soon.
and also you soon...

in my life i loved them all..

2011-08-28T23:45:00.000+08:00

The greatest band of all time.
& to think despite the limitation of technologies in their era, the number of fans can be so much!

Black Book

2011-08-09T02:20:00.000+08:00

His quote from the video..
"to be truly challenging in this life that we live, it should be based on a firm foundation of financial and risk...
how people fling their life beneath the wheels of routine in the pursuit of security..
the choice: what would it be? bankruptcy of pocket or bankruptcy of soul.."

well said.
and yes how small we are on this big planet earth..

2011-07-23T11:17:00.001+08:00

Bob Sinclar's Love Generation.

Chanced upon this video by chance. its pretty awesome!
To be going out and doing the things the your way no regrets no worry. I adore that!

backpain go away.. i want to go out!!!!

live life

2011-06-29T22:27:00.000+08:00

Self centered living, vain, ingoing..
Do I fit any of them? there ought to be some rationale as to how the military choses its men..who are the leaders, their personalities.. I hope I'm not the geographical profile I've thought to be in..

Another year and 2 mths to go, should I change to survive or the other way round..
I do hope for someone to share my thoughts and life. someone tat have the same pov.
And also, does planning leads to failure?..

seeking, adventuting, exploration

2011-06-21T09:00:00.000+08:00

ATC 2011 had been a fun filled race, a taste of what those big boys adv race outside are planning. my kindof genre of racing!
Even thou we'd a bad start, it was really awwesome tat we caught up esp at the kayaking section which we powered thru 3 teams, superb adrenauline. and when it gets too hot in the neck for u, the race brings u swimming. gorgeous!
The whole experience felt like a gd dream, memories. and its bout time to wake up again to boresome green. its the same sun, but the feeling's world apart.
At the end of the day, ppl ask me why torture urself on ur weekends to do tat. my thots; its the spirit, adrenauline, friends tat am addicted to: the things tat put on smile on me.. :)

phantom of the opera

2011-06-04T22:58:00.000+08:00

Finally got time to see back and enjoy this masterpiece.
:D

what is your purpose?

2011-05-21T00:13:00.000+08:00

How now brown cow?

within touch?

why must we serve..

2011-05-07T03:43:00.000+08:00

The opposition recently propose for NS to be shortened to 16mths.

I do support that.
True be it the manpower crunch, but then again most of us are really well educated people, don't think we need that much of effort to understand commands do we? at this age we're at our primes to be doing stuff, learning skills, participating in sports..

Yes, we do need to learn all the basic skills of art to ur role in case diplomacy fails.. but hey what's next? are we still playing a pivotal role for defence?
Wouldn't it be better if we can serve the service in other ways that will be more useful, like the rowers can go ahead and win our nx medal, volunteering ur time so those old aunties working at macdonalds & hawker centers can rest early with more incentives be given to them, or even doing things like maybe working in the community clubs, non profit govt organisations..
Isn't that better than lobo-ing around?

I cant wait for ord.
Food for thought: the next phase is gonna be a loong one to walk

Respect

2011-04-08T13:07:00.000+08:00

It's been two weeks into the damn course..
Truth be said that i've learnt something new but i'm rather dreading those moments.

Why am I here? Feeling so hollow, so empty. would it be better if I am bashing thru the terrains at least I might get to see more use there abt survival.

So what if you're darn good, haven you been through my position once? I really don't know what's so funny watching maybe yourself previously enduring all this.. if you yearn the respect shouldn't you show some yourself?

The old ways of teaching is crap totally.

1 year 4 months more..

2011-03-28T19:22:00.000+08:00

gosh..
this path is so long to walk. everyday's a regime, rushing to wait & waiting to rush.
so bored. so tired.
Those days where everybody's a friend, laughing, playing, gone travelling..
ahh-man...

and at the end of the story you get people (or brat) like this:

LOSER.
this guy ought to be shot in the head. total disgrace to not only your country, but worse thing YOU.

life love and laughter

2011-03-20T00:32:00.000+08:00

it doesnt matter

life love and laughter..
the three basic needs isnt it..
Loving the two videos above.. awwsome! yeah, thats life!
:)
cheers ppl!

misses

2011-03-07T21:34:00.000+08:00

And so does it seems..
My physical feels to be on a downward spiral..
Boy do I miss those pre enlistee days, climbing, paddling..
Even a little sun deters me now..

Those little adrenauline rushes.. surf's up, cascading, bouldering.. wow!

2011-02-27T02:21:00.000+08:00

There.
Music essential expresses your thoughts.
Cheerio!

Jelly Beans!

2011-02-06T10:51:00.001+08:00

Can I have the Dr Pepper's one pls?

兔年快乐!
:)
Cheers Friends.

Moon River..

2011-01-30T01:13:00.001+08:00

Moon River.. Wider than a mile..
I'm crossing you in style someday..
Oh, dream maker ,you heart breaker
wherever you're going, i'm going your way

Two drifters, off to see the world
There's such a lot of world to see
We're after the same rainbow's ends, waiting round the bend
My huckleberry friend, moon river, and me..

Heart melting indeed my friend..
Gone were the days when courtship are a melodious affair..
Can I be a recipient of this too? :)

Cheers friends! its time for love, and spending time with one & all around you..

POP lo.

2011-01-02T20:25:00.000+08:00

The Vienna Philharmonic New Year's Concert 2011 - Johann Strauss - Waltzer

- Waltz to love!! The Austrians are really pretty in music and people ehh.

Happy New Year once again!

Today's my last book in to Tekong as a Chao Recruit!

POP LO!

To those studying, a very good start of your new term as well.

O levels people, all the best for the 10th too!

Cheers!

Hello 2011!

2011-01-01T03:40:00.000+08:00

Goodbye 2010!

It had been an awesome year indeed.
-Graduating with a Diploma
-Shoe proj getting into TKKIA
-Met a load of great friends
-Went backpacking.. love it, cant wait to go again!
-Climbing in nature so high i dun dare look down.
-Raging through the rapids in a kayak
-Surfing! Woohoo, awesome!
-and enlisting into SAF...

had a blast!
next up, POP!!
Thank you my friends, half of me was from you people out there!
I wish you all a Happy New Year..
New adventures out there for you, live out your dreams. Cheers matey!

Sundays usually are happy days.

2010-11-28T13:33:00.000+08:00

Its Sunday again.
Bye mainland!

sigh, time flies like super fast when you're out here.
so much to do, so little time..
Festive period is approaching, but i dun seem to feel the spirit either..

a food for thought: probably this is going to be the way life is, even after this 2yrs. life of a working adult.
I need to start constructing a plan for the next phase too.
Perhaps pursuing something of a bridge in outdoor learning and human psychology?
or go see the world?

boy, i am missing the sea, sun, breeze!

*wonder wad will my sarge think if i paste this picture on my locker as the thing u miss most.. hahaha

Book Out!

2010-11-27T01:38:00.000+08:00

BOOK OUT !
at last i got a long weekend to myself - No 0530hes reveille 5BX, & catching up with news and friends.. (well, hope they're free of course)...

Reflecting on the past 2 weeks..
Army life is a mix of hot and cold, certain thing makes sense, others dun and you just gotta swallow it.
The highlight thus far gotta be the live range, shooting a SAR21 rifle for the first time, your finger on the trigger and squeezing it off.. Bang! down goes the target.. CS comes alive! The night shoot was initially a blur, as in you cant see where the targets are. but we get to use the tracer rounds for that, and its really beautiful watching your own effort exploding into a mini fire display at the target board..
then comes the dull part, cleaning your rifle, gosh! firing is so easy, but th amount of carbon built up uh.. is a shit load of black soot to clear..

then also the middle of the night 3am wake up route march to draw arms for the first time. we all got "bluff-ed" by our officer, who gave us some fake next day activity plan & we all went to sleep thinking" tml is an easy day..haha, reminds me of the time when i'd my nite walk at ubin.. thats probably the most shag day thus far..

I'm also glad my OC doesnt believe in corporal punishment, but when he does it, the feelings is damn sucky i swear.. sad to say, my platoon always is the one that kana it.. for all sorts of different reasons.. I've been pondering that why its a must to shout ard in army? doesnt it make sense the more u try to control something the more control you lose..
& then, there are the people that still cant get used to an army life.. abt regimental-ism, abt uniformity, abt teamwork.. once scolded, not shy at all one.. how much bad habit u get used the more difficult it is to remove it, so why not just accept the fact that "2 yrs lan lan have to serve", make the better of it not some shit life..

thats army for you! not forgetting the non stop constant PT sessions daily. changing of attire in lightning speed.. haha, sigh.. every Singaporean son..

Becoming soldiers.

2010-11-08T23:18:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow's the day.
1st time botak, 1st time drawing weapon.. many questions, mixed feelings.
I hope I dun lose my tan when i get in too.. Weight will be down thats for sure..

I'd just wanna thank anyone that's reading this for being a friend..
All this years, you people are an awesome bunch.. & I do look forward to seeing you all again soon!
& if you feel the urge to text me, pls do! :)

Take care people!
Well, good byes are always hard.
So, I'll leave with a song to help me with that..

John Denver - Leaving on a jet plane..

Bali 2010

2010-11-04T14:26:00.002+08:00

Last light at Bali

Bali 2010..
Sun. Sand. Waves. Surf. Shop. Enjoy.

The words to sum it all.. what more can i ask for, lest the alfresco dining on the beach which i couldnt really find, except for their local mee bakso which was deliciously cooked.
HAHA.

Gone Surfing

Surfing. another new sport for me.
it looks so incredibly easy on video, but breaking out to get the waves is the un-told part of this joy.
But, if u hit the right technique, force & timing.. standing up & surfing to shore is pure happiness. Feels as though u've 'tamed' the force of mother nature..
Golly, I do much miss the crashing wave therapy now.. :(

The locals were really friendly too, even though the roadside shops WILL require a little of aggressive bargaining as they're pretty much 4x the actual selling price..
Surf products are galore too..
Only peeve is the lack of food outlets, u gotta walk a distance to find a good one.. and surprisingly the Japanese cuisine there are good too. Hahah.

Hard Rock Cafe Bali

Not forgetting hard rock cafe. Boy-wee!
Having a meal listening to the likes of the beatles, elvis, etc.. (Y)

A place to re-visit in the future. & to those who love th sun & shopping; yes you too!

so yup, all in all. this 4 days was the last real break i'm gonna have.. Next Tues, will be a new chapter.. A chapter i wish to quickly flip through..

To the sea

2010-10-29T01:11:00.000+08:00

Oct 15 i posted,
"I'll jet off to bali..."
Gee, hahas funny part is that it was just a passing thought & hey Presto! I'm boarding my flight tml!
Once again i get to take a plane.. all the talk by Sim & all is making me excited for Bali. and of course surfing!
Woohoo!
Halloween in Bali.. :)

Doing Kayak Orientation Programme (KOP) for pri sch kids really proved one hell of a challenge..
and yes through there, i learnt a fair bit too, even though i had to shout a couple of times..
Wonder wad do parents teach their kids nowadays..
Everyone just seem to be so pampered, not able to withstand small things like sitting on a sandy grass, sand particles stuck in the shoe, etc etc..
Sigh. and to think these are my "hou-dai"..

haha, and lastly to add. Do catch the social network movie.
Its one awesome show!

The Beatles - Baby You;re a rich man..

Did I push it too hard?

2010-10-23T02:48:00.000+08:00

"Many persons have the wrong idea of what constitutes true happiness...is not attained through self-gratification, but through fidelity to a worthy purpose."

Helen Keller.

I ought to be more alive!

Bored!

2010-10-19T14:20:00.001+08:00

闷了!
Gosh!
I'm really bored/depressed now..

This period really sucks, counting your days in. and not have any productive avenue of doing anything..
Once again i'm lost..

Isit true that the more you yearn for something the further it seems?

姜还是老的辣

2010-10-16T23:53:00.031+08:00

As the title of the post goes, that is so damn true..
A matured group are so much communicable and interesting..

This is one big loop hole in our society.
Why the need for an rounder education system be made in a way that students be forced to do things they have no wish in? and as a student, why not just treat every new thing as a learning experience and follow through with a beating heart, not a slouched one?
Sigh.
Today i had to give up on one, and blow my top on the rest..
wad an eventful day.. :(

I finally met up with sherwin & the rest of the 11B's gang.
plus vanga dropped by WVSB today! :)
and ya..
The sad emo reality of a NSF is slowly creeping into me.
like wad derrick said "your life will change from a free one to so much a regimental.. "
omg lah.. a dog. an empty shell.
2 years lei.. not a track i want to run my train on.. and i hope this thought will stay saint and fresh..

we are golden

2010-10-15T01:08:00.000+08:00

3 weeks more.

Time seems to slow down when you see your timeline ahead of you.
If only I'd the money, i'll jet off to Bali or gold coast and be typing this from the beach liao..
Sad that i'm too, going to be missing some of the wonderful trips that are upcoming.
Confined!

Opportunities are sought by yourself..

I'm rather glad i completed the playboat video at last.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=luOjlhiOB2c
click on the above to view.
so a nice video, those were the moments..

"smile a smile, pass the smile, be happy... "
all that matters now.

reflections.

2010-10-08T16:45:00.000+08:00

The last two weeks had been valuable to me, looking back it seemed just like a small dream bubble; the road ahead is still so long.. But it was the best travelling experience in my 20 years.
Penang - Ipoh - KL - Cameron Highlands - KL - Melaka.

I'll always rmb my 20th, spent in melaka at the cafe near our backpacker's lodge. was sitting at a table with a group of other fellow backpackers playing a dice game.. its called fucker! haha.. In the background, soft acoustic music was played, and drafts of coffee brewing drifting in & out.. :)

Climbing at Ipoh's Tambun wall with Hee, Dan & Lydia was another great opportunity. In the outdoor, there aint tiles to tell u how to go.. the whole wall is yours.. as long its reachable and stable, go for it.. and the sheer height means only hearing the wind howling and insects' symphony, the higher you go!
Camp5 @KL's one utama's another superb place too, no wonder the climbing community sings praises about it. what you need, they provide. so many walls and routes for one to try. and its aircon! hehes.. the only bad thing is the accessibility from KL central and the steep price of living in KL.

Cameron Highlands.. hehes, hadnt been trekking since KK last year, and it was a good short one. I was amazed by the power of a land rover 4wd as it brought us thru this "road" to the start of the hiking trail.. "its not even a road.. " a fellow backpacker said.. yes thats true, as we climbed steep inclines, some even so narrow that one wrong wrong turn and off we go.. not to forget the whole path is soaking wet mud! hehes, eating steamboat in the cold weather was a great feeling too.

Penang was the food capital of Malaysia! and all i could rmb was eating and eating.. haha, hats off to their chendol too! i rmb ordering the cold delight in sweat, but yet feeling all cool & motivated after downing the bowl.. I wont mind having it anytime now!
Melaka's a city stop in time.. a mix of old and new. Quiet, peaceful and all the people seem to be friends looking out for one another. I rmb waking up to a blacksmith's knocking too, surprise to see this trade still plowing.. :) I find singapore rather 'noisy' now..

and lastly, it was the backpacking culture that i was truly great.. Its a hard to describe feeling, and u gotta try it to know it. Though everyone are complete strangers, it just feels like friends.

Truly an experience i've gotten more than I wished for!

"You have to have confidence in your ability, and then be tough enough to follow through.. "
Rosalynn Carter.

P/s: to all the beatles fan out there. Catch Nowhere boys before it runs out.

Reporting from truly Asia!

2010-09-24T11:26:00.000+08:00

Selemat Datang!
Today marks a week since embarking on this trip.
Food's good, all is safe less for the occasional bruises and cuts.
and i haven had any Malay food since arrival here; quite the irony aye. but yea chinese food here in M'sia tops most back home & undoubtlly the best are the ones by the streets.

The climbing experience i received were very much priceless. climbing on the nature wall where below the belayer is just a tiny speckle from the top, and worrying about your anchor system whether its safe anot..
In those every little ways it shaped my view and guts of course.
Camp 5 didnt disappoint me either. no wonder the climbing community sings its praise. so much to choose and so much to train on. and they're expanding too. very nice!
Looking forward to a next trip here.

Tommorow's off to Cameron Highlands, hmm wonder if there's steamboat..

Cheers ppl, see you all in awhile!

Backpacking Malaysia!

2010-09-16T10:17:00.000+08:00

12 Hours to departure..

Made the last min decision to not bring my laptop; not really holidaying if I spend the spare time facebooking aye.. Hahas.
Cheers people! Enjoy your break too.
Look forward to meeting up with you all after 3rd Oct..

To a Good, Safe trip!

zz

2010-09-11T23:58:00.001+08:00

"He who accepts and shares, triumphs..."

September!

2010-09-04T10:30:00.000+08:00

Its September already.
Golly, my days are numbered.

I get this lonely feeling sometimes, the feeling of being shut out by everyone.

withdrawal symptoms

2010-08-28T11:54:00.002+08:00

The Olympic flame has since been put out, and the closing ceremony concluded.

Most of the event grounds and volunteers have returned to their normal lives.

And me, i gotta miss working with them..

Its been a long while since I worked alongside hierarchy-free conditions, and everyone there felt so warmth and hosting - friends i shall say. Expressing concerns out, no bossing, and having a good time watching the game..

sigh, my impression of the yog had changed too.. Initially was thinking why the hell the govt spend so much on all this, and ppl who volunteer are really sian.. But then, thinking back, its the what-they-say Olympic experience that counts and I experienced that wholesome goodness. Also, the spendings goes to paying our salaries and contractors which comes back in a circle to economy..

Cheers people, and to the SKW group, gotta meet up again soon too.. :)

Time flies also boy!

Its now 28 August 2010.

3 weeks from now and I'll be heading for north again. This time, a whirlwind tour with a combo of climbing and food.. I seriously look forward to it, travelling on a backpack for 2 weeks; switching your bases, washing your own clothes, sleeping on the bus, eating fuss-free hawker food.. woohoo!

Then.. after that its check-in to Tekong resort.. Sigh, the long wait till enlistment has kinda made me lose enthusiasm.. I hope it doesnt reaches the point when I start to dread the feeling.

I'm also getting used to my kind of carefree lifestyle now.. everyday's like a holiday, wonder if I'll get tuned to army life or even that of a working adult? even so, what career path?

YOG and Singapore.

2010-08-23T22:23:00.002+08:00

Today, the final whistle is blown on the 3 on 3 basketball court.

and the YOG gold medal goes to the boys from Serbia and 'girls' from China. *they bloody look like old bod males on the court!

Well, working at the event had shown me alot, experienced, and also making new friends.

Good/Bad (this is written by a pure Singaporean's POV)

Firstly, was able to work and watch at the same time. hehes, i always love these multi-tasking jobs. The angmoh that comes are super big and tall for their age, 15 - 17 on average 1.9m. haha, they probably can reach all the way into the top shelf of the coke machine i was working on with much ease lah!

Culture breeds a difference too, from the conservative to the hype fun lovings "kids".. The Aussie girls are for one, a very fun loving bunch always smiling :)

To be these young stars, u get alot of perks lah, getting chased by teen girls/boys for pictures, press/media coverage, showered by sponsorship gifts and apparels. Thats living the high life boy! and exclusive transport too. basket.

Then, there were also the moments where emotions run high.. a smashed holding room's whiteboard.. and also the time when the Greece boys beat superpower USA and came singing and dancing. Precious moments.. Witnessed the flag raising ceremony too, the scene was a charged one.. the glory and joy standing at the podium is one tearing moment, reminds me of the time when i completed my marathon just that tis time, but next to me is my friend, my team. Naise!

Now comes the ugly part. Back of house

Associated mainly with this image:

Kiasu-ism.

not that i'm complaining that my job (to refill bottled drinks in the fridge which are foc to workforce) is a hard one.

but damn, its the people behavior that turns me off. the rate of drinks being taken out is already that fast, and u get people asking why not cold one ah.. its a chiller not a freezer dude! and also the typical Singaporean to takes as many as their arms can allow them. (i take for my friend) and afterwards drinking just a few sips of it before discarding. They just take things for granted.. Sets me thinking as to what these kids are taught in school.. and in society.

Do they know how to treasure something? do they know how to work hard for something? and if they do, will they hold on to it, or be complacent and let emotions take over?

...

hmm.

but overall i enjoyed the experience. my colleagues, the log staff, catering staff, all friendly and good.

Cheers!

Sungkai Whitewater Kayaking

2010-08-09T22:58:00.004+08:00

This post is dedicated to everyone whom made the trip possible & also to our Malaysian hosts.

Cheers!

it had been a good trip, max-out yet Happy and fulfilled.

I've gained a lot of experience & thrills, not only from the river itself but also from the people & knowing myself. Writing this post serves as a memory to myself and sharing the experiences with others :)

Got to admit the first morning, the first run, I was scared shit.. and the water is damn cold.

Overcoming the first rapid serves as a pat on the back to me.. which pretty much was my first objective. ha-ha.

Couldn't really remember when was the first time i flip, but the only solid memory was the one I tumbled down the fall head in the water, ka-ta-boom ka-ta-bish..

We potage some of the rapids too, cause of the nature debris that had been collated in the pool, but that's okay as there's plenty more to go around. The thrill comes about as if one is deciding my own path of navigation, everything lies in you, the captain of your craft.. The outcome then, is deemed as whether you chose the right path that gets you rushing ahead, or you choosing the more difficult path, getting stuck and wrenching your head for a solution out.

Speaking of which, is usually my case.. haha! May laugh it off now, but I'm really glad on some of the few occasions there's people to help me out.. in fact i actually fear my life in some. rmb there's one, my bow was wretched between two rocks, my stern was under the face of the fall, thank goodness the guide came to help me after awhile, I was quite desperate from moving against nature..

Another nice moment was this magenta colour jungle fruit plucked from this tree growing along the bank of the river.. Taste like longans.. It's a healthy recharge, as we sat on the bank eating them taking in the sights and sound.

Also amazing were the people themselves. They're really accommodating hosts. Food was prepared for us when we reach the ending point and also the lovely Durians, whesh.. probably the freshest I'd tasted, soft and creamy.. The Orang Aslis living by the river as we paddled were amazing too. Their kids come in the numbers and bloody hell they can just jump from rock to rock, dive in the water, swim along with our crafts.. I'm impressed, and they're like 5 years old only?..

All in all, I really enjoy, appreciate the opportunity given.. Gave some of my skin, and took back more of the feelings. Sets me thinking again..

Also, Happy National Day everyone.

TGIF

2010-08-06T00:45:00.002+08:00

At last.

Friday is here. 6th August 2010.

The water rumbling, birds chirping, insects creaking, smell of teh tarik wafting in and out..

River is calling.

Time to pick up my bags & balls*: "Just Do It"..

Cheers to:

- a good safe trip

- good weather and transportation

- a friendship to be renowned

- new friends to be made

- a happy fun time!! (esp hot spring!!)

See everyone back on Sunday night..

why are we so pampered?

2010-08-04T13:25:00.003+08:00

I woke up this morning and was reading yesterday's paper on the table.

Came across this article that reads: Despite deaths, Railway tracks still accessible.

Reading on, I'm angered yet sadden at the media and people's response.

Cant we be more matured to have the bloody common sense to say "this is an active train track, keep off, enter at your own risk."

Why do we need a fence and gates to tell us that. Have we all gotten all comfortable and pampered in our lives that we become ignorant fools when you need a damn watchdog to save your own lives, the most basic of humanity - to Save yourself.

I'm would be really sadden if the day comes when fences go up.

First are the fences blocking access to the road parallel to the airport runway, then the platform doors on MRT stations (ridiculous waste of money), next what? Fences separating ALL pedestrian paths from the roads to prevent jaywalking?

We would really become animals in the zoo already. Seeing things from behind a cage.

Sigh..

And come to think of it. All these things dont happen until some accident happened; the media and people then jump on it like a pack of hungry lions snatching a piece of meat.

http://www.todayonline.com/Singapore/EDC100803-0000082/Despite-deaths,-railway-tracks-still-accessible

We ought to take a leaf from the way Malaysians run things; you slow down things, you communicate better..

friday is getting nearer!

2010-08-03T23:45:00.002+08:00

A friend

is one that you want to throw things at when at the lowest of time,

is one that you share your joys and achievements with, be it good or bad.

and is one that encourages, criticizes, loves, hate, and lastly Respect.

If one cant even hold simplest of respect - your friendship.

The next step down its strangers..

I'm really disappointed certain of such things happen, to mislead your intentions for own personal gains.. sigh..

oh well, life still goes on as per normal..

I cant stop giving; its the circle of life.

and

OMG Friday is getting nearer!!

Having thoughts of an out-of-the-country birthday celebration.

something simple. :)

WW

2010-07-30T23:40:00.002+08:00

In next week's time.

I would be heading North on the North-South Expressway.

Embarking on a whole new experience.

Despite all the trainings and mental drill, i still see myself getting all shaken & nervous.

Deciding not to try is the real failure itself.

A leap of faith.

really hope Mother Nature is at her tamest for us.

and that all would be well, go as one, come as one.

But then.. all in all.

"Just Do It!"is the key motto,

thinking only sets your destination, its the going that sets you moving again.

Old Spice!

it smells good, really.

:D

2010-07-29T23:53:00.002+08:00

ah-ha! i finally watched Lion King!

its a touching show.. music, story. haha, esp loved the part when timon and pumba accepted simba and they living in perfect harmony :)

Smiling is like emitting positive ions about you. makes the whole world look so good.

smile more everyone!

Circle of life.

2010-07-27T23:50:00.000+08:00

I need to be more willing to take chances when i see them.

Swallow the guts to take the first leap, no hesitation.

To take some, Give back many more.

Accept everybody.

Believe myself.

There's much more to work on,

And i realized i've not watched lion king! gosh, its one good movie lah!

Many life values to be taught in it :)

Two of the abstract from Youtube: so lovely.

Hakuna Matata - Timon & Pumba rocks.

Circle of life - OST Lion King, Elton John

So good.

"From the day we arrive on the planet

And blinking, step into the sun
Theres more to be seen than can ever be seen
More to do than can ever be done

Some say eat or be eaten
Some say live and let live
But all are agreed as they join the stampede
You should never take more than you give......"

Thank You Disney.

Infernal Gallop

2010-07-21T23:45:00.002+08:00

At LAST, i found it.

the full piece; used to think it was just called can-can..

Play It! :)

Such a fabulous piece of music.

Tired out people.

Listen. Relax. Enjoy.

Time is running out

2010-07-19T11:35:00.003+08:00

it may seem that I'm the most free person to be doing anything now.

As much as that seems, there's much ado to work, trainings, etc..

I need cash, need time, need practice.

Cash.

Had not been getting an income from work for close to 2months now.. And to pay for those transport costs, the occasional overseas trip and recently and the policy that i hold..

I'm still flying 'alright' now.. but i dont want to see myself hitting solid bottom soon.

I need a Job, Anyone got any to intro, esp IT fair. pls rsvp. thanks!

Time.

Every week's almost by default. I got my project meetings to go through, the trainings to attend. And the one thing i hate the most is to be LATE! despite all those notices i put up all over my room and alarm clock. i always tend to wake up late or just be late. I need to get a big clock that rings every half hour..

Next up is the priorities, this is always a headache as I'm always the kind that likes to do things in a sit-on-the-fence methodology. To weigh which is more define, I'm usually lost in the fog.

Practice.

WW trip & climbing trip are coming up. Seeing my friends doing well, that sorts of create a benchmark for me to want to catch up to. You do trainings so that you wont suffer when in reality right.. sigh, i dont want to get into some deep shit when in Malaysia.. But my learning curve is just an exponential, takes a looong time to get to the top; time which is running dry..

To not think is to run away.

or have i been too comfortable??

I tell my students: Look at where you want to go, keep looking, your body will bring you there.

Why cant i tell my mind to do that?

hope the carrot bites

2010-07-16T23:45:00.002+08:00

There's really quite a fair bit of workload to clear.

haha, graduating doesnt gives you the ticket to freedom also.

But does gives you the thin privilege of where u can still blend into student society in campus yet gain significance influence with the top brass. haha.

Many things start falling into picture for me now, going thru some of that thought process.

Monetary issues, Plans, etc..

Life is really quite short.

Hitting 20 + 2, am still missing that something.

a taste, a slice of the forbidden fruit, of sharing, of giving.

pass.

2010-07-15T11:29:00.002+08:00

ytd was a good fine day for outdoor.

tide was good, no rain, sunny.

and i'm very glad at the end of the day i pass out my group of students with a smile on their face. that they've gained some knowledge from me, I've gained some of the enthusiasm from them.

Which was what's truly satisfying about.

I took away some, I give back more.

Cheers ppl! and thanks many to my friends, fellow coaches, and WV staff that helped me mould my building blocks.

also.

Hopping across the causeway always drops me a big surprise.

HAHA.

first thing, the design of the stupid up-ram two-lane, itself was a MAJOR architecture fail.

second thing, they choose of ALL times to dig up ONE of the lanes during the evening rush.

WOA, superb really superb.

and the 170 bus driver is one fucking impatient driver. which's kinda cool in some sense.

Do-Re-Mi

2010-07-13T23:50:00.002+08:00

Awesome Sync dancing..

this sport should be made into an art.. so nice lah, watching people move in unison.

sun-day

2010-07-11T12:57:00.002+08:00

"Success comes by believing in yourself... "

Eugene Chow

11/07/10

Bon Voyage Jingg!

2010-07-07T23:53:00.004+08:00

Today's the day. and that dear jing left for aussie to study..

Bon Voyage my dear friend..

Take care & be safe :)

Just wanna thank you for the past years for being a listening ear, nagging grandma & company if u need one..

Cheers Jing! and all d best for the adventure u're gonna be taking there..

Hope to see you really soon!

that thing you do!

2010-07-06T23:50:00.002+08:00

Quoted from Glee:

"things u cant say it out in person, try expressing it in song... "

Cheers people.

i wish i could be more communicable..

2010-07-05T01:20:00.002+08:00

POTC orchestra medley - sound quality's abit off; but nonetheless still go

Indiana Jones..

Two of the best composer and their resulting movie.. Hans Zimmer and John Williams

Hope that perks up your Monday..

why do weekends come and go so quickly..

was looking at bloopers from Indiana Jones.

so much memories. this was the movie sequel my dad grew up watching in the theater & me growing up watching it too, on tv!!

definitely the best adventure movie.. :) aww, so tempted for the box set..

http://www.amazon.com/Adventures-Indiana-Jones-Complete-Collection/dp/B00009ZPU6/ref=sr_1_11?ie=UTF8&s=dvd&qid=1278265708&sr=8-11

hahs.

anw, cheers ppl to a good week ahead.

no subject

2010-07-04T01:05:00.002+08:00

Just back from watching Germany - Argentina match at some coffeeshop.

though a neutral party, felt that Germany's game play was awesome & neat..

4 -1

Ghana was up rooted last night, wad a tragic loss.. oh well, champions 2014!! :)

first time watching a soccer match at coffee shop too, hahas, the atmosphere was warm, even though we had our fair share of views being blocked by the random beer girl or being irritated by the old uncle who decides that he needs to get blood flow to his legs..

Hair is a cuii state now.

didnt get the usual hair dresser to do it for me as she was busy.. then came some new aunty, it looked alright when i left the place.. but now.. sucks man.. its halfway between crew cut and short..

idiot :(

On more thoughts..

i hate it to see dad being pushed around by mom.. dread it more when they start shouting..

sighh.. just felt that dad is being too much a big nice guy already, so much so its getting to be like what she says are right..

I really want to help, but i dunno how.. some part of me just didnt want to hurt her.. but if i dont, how else can i make her 'realized..' its like the hard way or no way.. i dun want to start some silent treatment too.. sighh

Sundays used to be so much a day to look forward to, when there is cooking and watching tv.. these things just doesnt seem to happen now.

isit cause i've outgrown them?

haiss.

can you feel the love tonight?

2010-07-02T23:50:00.002+08:00

sigh..

itsy bitsy spider climbs up the water sprout.

2010-07-01T17:02:00.002+08:00

Had a very sumptuous dinner @jing's ytd.

Thank You so much!

Home cooked food always tasted the best..

and also the ukulele. :)

~time to learn how to play lepak music and cook up a storm..

hehes.

on the more contrary side, it rained this morning..

which kinda wrecks havoc to my plans today..

no more playboat..

If its raining like this now, in July summer time. What would it be like come December?

gosh, i dun wan the land rover to be some widely owned vehicle next time man..

haha.

and stupid SP, no matter how much they renovate they still dun solve the problem of water leaking thru their walkways..

sigh.

i need some spice. and guts.

ukulele..

2010-06-28T23:30:00.002+08:00

The river...

A place of hype, energy and music.

Nature's tamed beast and provider to life.

seeing it during any trek, ultimately brings a smile to your face.

rafting it was a magic carpet ride, cascading through the rapids, enjoying the moment with your friends.

paddling through it... thats for me to find out..

Excited vs scared.

Wow! exhilarating!

what a wonderful world...

Go Japan!!

win it tml!!!

Travel, Eat, See, Rejoice

2010-06-26T23:45:00.013+08:00

Well well.. Hadnt time to update this space for quite some time..

so yup, last weekend's penang trip was fun.

Food glorious food! :)

Kway teow th'ng

wanton mee

Curry Mee

The Famous Penang Char Kway Teow

SO began our trip on Friday, via the express bus to sungei nibon bus terminal on penang island.

hahas, i guess nowadays the land transport market gotta keep up with the rising airlines.. There's seats that can go fully recline, complete with person entertainment system!

A pity's the movies screened are probably pirated, but oh well, at least time passes more quickly

on board, making the 10 hr bus ride seems like a blink of an eye.

Sat morning. Arrived. Fresh clean breeze. took a taxi to the hotel, as we werent sure wad route the penang island buses were gonna take. First glimpse, Penang reminds me on singapore,

there're street lamps everywhere, and not that much rubbish i see strewn everywhere..

Couldnt check in the hotel as we were too early.. 7am! haha, so made our way to an authentic Penang breakfast right in the historic georgetown.. wanton mee, lor mee, pi dan porridge, etc.. u want it u name it. haha, superb! After which we took a bus around to see the old fort and some colonial buildings.. which makes it to 12; & we can check in..

Afternoon, decided to go shopping at Komtar, the big centralised place where everyone impt

gathers. saw nth much, and caught karate kid.. it was a Cathay theater there! RM10 only, sharp contrast eh.. Dinner was the best. Street food! walked into a street in old chinatown which looks

like khao san road in bkk, backpacker's inn and in the middle this roadside stall.. Tried

something amazing called char kway kak.. it is like carrot cake but in diff shapes, and the taste one is simply mouth watering good. tau geh nv tasted so good before..

land rover spotted!

Sunday came. Breakfast was hotel this time. relax for the morning, den headed out to Penang Hill.. Took public transport! feels so great to be planning ur own itinerary.. But sadly, the funicular up the hill is closed!! and the other way up is by 4wd; which was rather steep in pricing as to the gradient of the hill..

Bottom of the hill where the closed funicular sits.

Visited kek lok si temple, which was nearby.. very nice architecture they have carving the temple walls.. amazing view from the top too.. :)

View from the top near the guan yin statue..

hehes, another land rover spotted!!

Lunch was hawker fare.. you just cant get enugh of their hawker food, so amazing..

As the sun drop over the Straits of melacca, we arrived at Gurney Drive.. the more upmarket

part of town.. Dinner was a sumptuous seafood affair to celebrate fathers day.. Cheers Dad!

aye! the luxury hotels there look good.

Monday.. sigh. :( time to go home.. gonna miss all the food.

even the skies agreed, as it was raining.. pretty much the whole day..

but nevertheless, we went out for the last good penang style breakfast, enjoy my char kway teow.. Did some light shopping, - bought some bak kuah which turned out to be very good stuff when we came back to try..

was still raining when we checked out. but we made it to the bus stop to catch a bus to the airport. haha, it's the exact same bus model Singapore's SBS had been using.. the only difference, one is 60kmph the other is 90kmph.. hahah, so cool as we sped along.. :)

Soon enough, we gotta board our plane already.. Thank You Penang.

was a short flight & we landed safely.

Post - travel depression begins..

Look to facebook for my photos!

hahaha. sums up my short getaway.

a fun short eat trip..

dunno when will be the next time i get to do so with them again.. its 2 years of home soil..

skies looks set for another storm tml..

3 doses of caffeine

2010-06-16T21:09:00.011+08:00

hehes, today's weather was fabulously amazing.

think the whole volume of water which fell could have been our sweat that had been 'torturous-ly' evaporated from us the past month and weeks.

haha, let's hope the weather stays and not scorching heat tml.

I'm also a little delighted in the sense when i hear news of orchard road being flooded due to the downpour.

sorry, but always when dealing with news that involves random acts of nature that leaves the city coming to a stand-still; i gotta applaud that.

shows that mother nature is striking back, leaves ourselves to think of one moment what we

have done to cause that, enjoyed too much air-con? or that we burned too many stuff on this

planet?

pictures from the flooding:

Sungei Orchard..

HAHAHA. well u see i've presented a problem, a likely one considering the erratic weather.

The solution: Get a 4Wheel Drive! :D

Presenting... *drums roll.. the Land Rover!!

Toyota Land Cruiser

Land Rover Defender

Land Rover Discovery.

woohoo, this further justifies the idea of me getting a land rover for my dream car.. hahaha, if i get the above situation, i'd probably just drive straight through it.

Fuss free. Simple.

The top gear episode that left me hooked on 4wd.

The Bolivia's Road of death..

back to other stuff,

i'm glad the spice funding meeting was not as grilling as i thot, & yes hopefully we are on our way to start up soon..

Cheers ppl.

Enjoy the cool night.

trains & mother nature

2010-06-15T11:18:00.004+08:00

As the title goes, Trains & mother nature..they really compliment each other.

the trickery-trock of the wheel spin aids like the bass to nature's symphony of birds & circket calls..

superb i tell u.

fell in love with train travel all over again, after spending last night browsing all sorts of pictures & their scenery..

The royal scotsman by orient express.

Its so beautiful, lush meadows, silent ripples of clear water..

awww!

Here's another one..

Man! I'm left with gleaming eyes.

I hope you click on their webpage (dun click the prices can alr..)

check out their beautiful interior too. http://www.royalscotsman.com/web/rs/the_royal_scotsman.jsp

I really hope one fine day i get to travel europe by train.

Back onto the S.E.A side, am toying with the idea of travelling by train to Bangkok from Singapore.. who's game?

hehes.

Manic Monday

2010-06-14T01:05:00.002+08:00

Well, its monday all over again..

sigh, contemplating whether to save or to splurge.

Pay's not in, and i really got many things i feel like getting..

for eg. another pair of sanuk. hehes, was motivated while watching some fashion show for it...

Thinking also whether should i go into 'full-time' mode or get a better paying thing.

sigh again, L1 assessment cancelled.

hmm, all the negative aside. love this song!

~ Manic Monday!

Weekends are a dream, weekdays are reality..

haha, always listen to oldies.

and malaysia radio offers better variety than sg's service i felt. no advertisements! stupid harvey norman, always popping up ruining ur mood..

Cheers to a good week ahead peeps.

cant wait for penang char kway theow this weekend... hehes

kasou taishou 超級變變變!

2010-06-12T13:20:00.003+08:00

Found this timeless classic show on youtube.

it totally rocks.

*lift my hat off to the japanese.

another one below.

haha, i used to watch this show on channel 8, until then they've stop screening liao.

The Japanese are really damn good creative inventors..

Ever wanted to smell beer but not taste the beer,

try fermented tea!

hehes.

together forever

2010-06-05T20:26:00.002+08:00

that night still felt like a happy dream.

haha.

i finally got my enlistment letter..

09 Nov 2010, time to don that green vest and helmet.

mixed emotions getting this letter.

at least i get to celebrate my 20th as a civilian still. though i dunno how much my friends are actually still around to rejoice with me..

A trip(s) needs to happen between now and that date..

Mambo Jambo! :D

2010-06-03T17:18:00.002+08:00

hehes, Mambo Jambo night was a darn good experience.

Woohoo!

Give It Up - KC & the sunshine band..

My heart goes sha la la in the morning, sha la la in the sunshine.. :)

hahah, and the playlist goes on..

being queuing them on infinite loop now.

Oldies music nv felt so much love and excitement before..

untitled

2010-06-01T10:52:00.002+08:00

8 days since putting on that graduating robe.

back then, u would have something to aim for. like in sch, in classes. all going towards this aim of getting that cert.

Now, its just an empty grass patch field for you to go about, finding your bullseye..

I'm bit of at a loss..

pursuing a passion and interest as a career?

I do not want to be eating dust.. lah..

quote unquote

2010-05-29T09:53:00.001+08:00

"Failure is the reason for not trying.."

i gotta remember that.

and also to not resist change.

somewhere over the rainbow

2010-05-27T22:51:00.005+08:00

it feels so weird to be going back to SP now. made me feel so old~~

and also congrats to my dear friends on your graduation too!

haha, all the poly got their diploma, the jc ppl going to uni.. here we are go, into the industries and career(s)..

Cheers ppl!

the weather is damn bad these days too. Humidity is an all time high. basket.. walking home drenches me..

tomorrow is another big day.

pumpfest! - first boulder competition sia..

gosh!

why isit that when u finally get the something u wanted for, u dun get the feel and excitement that follows?

sigh..

u still captivate me.

Visit Batam 2010

2010-05-23T23:34:00.002+08:00

I always feel sad and lethargic whenever coming back home to the little red dot.

sigh, i guess its just the body and mind adjusting.

Batam was great, in a sense that i can take things slow, no need to think, eat and sleep.

hahaha.

i hope derrick and KY enjoyed themselves all the same, for this trip is afterall dedicated to them.

soon-to-be-NSF.

it was a pleasure travelling with you all.

pls pardon my snores.

stayed at holiday inn batam.

it really is 一分钱一分货.

even though, i guess we stayed at one of the most expensive hotel there, the service was really pleasant. and so is the breakfast too.. gosh!! i nv had such a long slow hearty breakfast for a long long time man. hehes, i wonder if i can just one day pop into some random hotel for their buffet breakfast?..

had my first massage experience too.. haha! damn epic was i cause i really didnt noe wad to do when we got inside the place, and all i see was a mattress.. now i know!, anw ya, the experience not bad lah, i felt asleep during the head massage.. :) and its damn ticklish whenever they press on my legs.

shopping wise. nth much to buy.. perhaps the best deal was just the ralph lauren flag edition polo at sgd 69 (Rp 399000) for two.. i couldnt believe wad i was paying for initially as the poster wasnt up, until like last night.. and when the sales girl entered $69 on the calculator for two i was really shock. :)

ate quite alot for this trip too. i gotta run more for this week liao..

though the trip was more towards a getaway, it was worthwhile.

recharged and revitalized

like they say the grass is always greener on the other side.

going on vacations is addictive!

hope mom and dad faster agree on somewhere..

Graduation 2010.

2010-05-22T23:01:00.004+08:00

This is a post dated post.

haha, pictures first.

To Dad and Mom: Thank You for being there ALWAYS. :)

TO 1A03! you guys and lady had been a wonderful lot! picture perfect!

To Jacob and lard! Cheers :)

Well, its the end of the road here for me.

Three years. Bye SP.

Memories aplenty, pictures above are most of the key persons that played much in molding myself to a better, strong, confident person.

Not forgetting the adventurers too, but haha, got too many individual shots than to be posted here. but yup, u people are the backbone for my SP life.

Thank You! good wishes to the current management!

to 1A03: haha, no comments but i think we are the best class in deee ah, got the weirdest combo.. but then, w/o all this nonsense class would not be the same ryt?

chalet on 1st weekend july aye..

haha, i was having alot of thoughts to write a moment ago, but i lost it all. thanks to facebook..

but anw, yup, i just wana thank everyone that came down for my ceremony esp dad and mom..

Cheers. to the future!

sanuk!!

2010-05-19T22:45:00.002+08:00

:) smile.. pass it on..

friday's the big day already.

the time when i would get to see those long lost sausages and take photos with them!

hehes,

tried on the robe at home earlier, it's bloody HOT. i seriously pray it rains on friday morning.. haha.

excited.. to be graduating.

end of a new chapter and the start of a new book.

and lastly, as sanuk means happy people in thai.

i hope things in bangkok becomes better soon..

cheers people.

dont stop believing

2010-05-17T23:45:00.002+08:00

yesterday was the big day - Xphysique 2010.

my first adventure race.

my first time riding on a mountain bike trail; unfortunately that ended in a fall, costing alot.

though we didnt make it to the top three, I am really glad in running the race with my friends.

the same people that pulled me up when i fell and held me back when excitement overtook exhaustion.

Dismay there maybe, but still it was an experience i would not forget.

In all, i can say; an adventure race is way tiring that a marathon.. it just blows your mind away complete with fatigue..

Thank you lard.

Thank you KSN.

it was a pleasure :)

and now,

DONT STOP BELIEVING!!

the lyrics does reflects well for me.

and here i go, today taking a BIG step into the future, the nature.

the only enemy to face is yourself.

2010-05-07T23:50:00.002+08:00

well well.. another week ended.

Much ado had happened.

work pretty much sums up most of the time.. and some training(s)

then yup, the catch-ups and stuff.. really do gotta treasure all this time spent, some to army, some to uni and overseas, wont have that much of a time in the coming future liao..

May is also another busy month. weekends are already lined up.. hahaha. :)

to say..

i'm disappointed with the way things are now..

maybe its karma cus i used to think like that when i was in the planning stage.

but now that left that shoe.. the view does change.

the attitude & stuff, leaves me to think whether this is business or pleasure?

then again, its not for me to be doing all this already..

i'm just glad i still have friend(s) to be around..

out with that.

now the good stuff.

i enjoyed my leave.. hehes.

quiznos always brightens the day..

cant wait for more pay to come.. and more trips too.

I will be a dream..

2010-05-01T23:45:00.004+08:00

We the kings - We'll be a dream

Another song to add to best of 2010.

somehow the lyrics and tune just caught onto me..

spent the day recuperating & had dinner w parents n bro at old airport road hawker.

Golly! the place is huge, no wonder its so crowded, really spoilt for choice..

the good items tried:

- Orh luan (oyster omelette)

- Chee Cheong Fan (w the prawn & char siew inside, v fresh)

- Char Kway Teow

- satay

Disappointment:

- La-la (too wet & pricey)

- stingray (meat too tough)

- wo-tia (would be good if not so over fried)

- Hokkien mee (blant!!)

nx time:

- western food

- crocodile soup??

- thai food

hehes. pretty up sums up the foodie heaven. and dakota mrt is next to it only.. woohoo.

thanks sean for the heads up.

After that, took a train to promenade and Marina Bay sands.

walked across the helix bridge, wondering why the big publicity over the opening of a bridge, its just the unique design i guess.

then got human jammed outside for awhile as humans and vehicles jostle for priority to move.

Finally we got thru, wanted to idle outside the casino for pictures but were turned away cus i was in berms.

But anyway the shopping mall looks nice, with the high ceiling and glass facade, but little disappointed its not fully decorated - a half painted picture.

The hotel on the other side was better. very classy and awe. not as big as i had pictured it to be though;

haha, looks like singapore is popping up more and more posh places to be..

~develop more of outdoor sports too!

Mutual respect is an important component in life

To ask for things nicely & seeking the other POV is one example.

if that cant be done, why ask in the first place..

sigh.

guess i'm just disappointed with the way things turn out.

on an end note.

i love the weekends.

cause i can wake up w/o hearing the sound fr an alarm clock. :)

night world.

neighbor problems.

2010-04-25T13:39:00.002+08:00

I was cleaning my desk this morning.

saw this fine array of black spots and the whole desk is covered in it.

first thoughts was that some insect died there or wad..

but on closer inspection they are BLOODY tar particles from cigarettes.

!@#$%^&*()!!!

and since i dun smoke, it could only come from outside the window. thru the wind as my inconsiderate wish he gets lung cancer neighbor does so everyday.

now here's the question: smoke or hot air rises, but particles are heavy so they should sink right?

so which is my exact target now; the upstairs loser or the downstairs fucker?

bloody hell.

first they pollute my air

second they ruin my evenings

third they dirty my room.

TMD.

This is war!

downstairs is easy.

upstairs hmm.. suggestions?

Parachute

2010-04-24T23:39:00.002+08:00

Gosh!

I am addicted to this song; while listening to it on 987 at work..

Cheryl Cole is HOT>

enjoy people!

Yesterday was another wet work day.

Today went climbing at diary farm..

I am so glad for an outing, think its quite cool when you slog your ass off on the weekdays and you get to do things you like on the weekends.

hehe, excited to go camp 5 in KL, hope mr teo says okie of cuz..

today taught me an important lesson. and also that I'd realized how small and lousy I am compared to the big players in the outdoor market..

like a toyota iq (smallest car) racing down the runway with an Airbus A380..

haha,

i still got a long walk, a walk never to be complacent and not on my guard..

but first,

i gotta overcome myself.

raging nature

2010-04-23T01:10:00.001+08:00

they call this the eye of the storm..
i would call it, calm among the chaos.

Nature and weather is just so amazing.
was at bedok the other day when i experienced a storm. not that i nv been thru one, this was special, in the sense that i have a visual on it approaching. superly cool.
Initially, the skies darken and the wind starts to pick up in our direction..
From afar, the background starts to fade out as if a movie screening is beginning.. the back facade of PLA disappears.
Then, you see the rain clouds slowing moving closer. as it hits the water, u can practically see from a distance the droplets hitting the water at high velocity..
Just like the countdown to a space shuttle launch, at time 0, the storm hit us in the face..
sea breeze and butter peppers!
i am watching day after tomorrow..
I then felt a moment of calm amongst the storm, as if time stood still.
"calm among the chaos.."
a little later, raindrops kept falling on my head..

but i am glad to let it fall, cus i'd a sealine bag and i saw the eye.
:)

where did all the good people go?

2010-04-22T00:26:00.002+08:00

where did all the good people go? - Jack Johnson.

Indeed a question.. left to be filled

today went on a delivery to sentosa cove and one degree fifteen.

my mind was totally blown away when we entered one degree fifteen.

gosh! the sheer size of the marina and the finishing.. poof. bagus.

then went onto cove walk or something the road. there were some houses there. one of them was developed with one Lamborghini parked outside and the rest in the midst of it.

I stepped into one. and walk towards the backyard. aww man, its dreamy man. u can practically park ur yacht there and maybe kayak stuff like that..

That, is the high life!

maybe my future retirement home.. :D

on the sidelines..

i now know why they say to be a student is the best..

i think

2010-04-20T02:04:00.002+08:00

i wonder if me being slow to process change and info is a bane or a boon?

sucks lah.

why cant things just be done slowly piece by piece and just rushing thru everything with brute force?

I drawn inspiration about this when kayaking the other day: "Life is to have the perfect balance.."

Here's some fun fact.

Hougang - Clementi during peak hour

MRT - 50mins

Car - 60mins

~ Food for thought ah. and i read this report the other day about some condo rile with residents complaining that 2 carpark lots are not enugh. WTF!

Having a car should be a luxury not a necessity.. sg being such a modernized nation should look towards promoting cycling, public transport..

whoo.

Central is a good place for jap food!

looking forward to that trip..

in youth we learn, in age we understand..

2010-04-15T23:50:00.002+08:00

a day of sweats, laughs, er inspired?

haha. yeah. i am.

Climbing the long way to success i am. the hard dirty way :)

the oldies and the 90s music are the best lah.

i really cant understand the boom and the hype of mainstream music now, its too loud! only a very sum are good.

lush 99.5fm ftw!

i need to be more engaging and step OUT!

2010-04-12T07:51:00.002+08:00

i need to go for a run..

been in too much contact with water already..

i would still need to work on my communications skills.

shit man, got the fall sick feeling.. sigh.

happy birthday to you my brother!

down to davy jones locker.

2010-04-08T18:27:00.002+08:00

Nice piece. and does kinda summaries the happenings.

sad, frustrated and sian.

Sad & sian that I've lose my specs to the water AGAIN.

guess this is the 4th pair liao.. zzz

Frustrated am I that I've just painfully build my money in the bank and I've to spend it all on a purchase not justified.

tmd.

simi karma lai de.

well, good thing is at least get to wear my contacts in tis morning. phew.

I've no plans today

2010-04-03T12:01:00.004+08:00

Its a Saturday. and for once I've Nothing to do.

and still waking up at 0830 in the morning, thats a totally in thing.

Waking past 10am is considered taboo.

Contented is me able to read the paper and enjoy my hot drink mug..

Sad to read about the removal of long bus journeys and i agree with the writer that we Singaporeans are too dependent on the MRT.

I sure miss the times when i converse to school in 151.

It all goes down to our society norm where everyone is kiasu and wanna rush for everything. That explains why the growth of us owning cars, cause having one enables you to leave later than usual compared to public transportation.

Growth in cars at one same period than equates to traffic jams and ultimately people shunning the buses altogether.

The train on the opposing end resolves all this pet peeves but still does not solve the norm in the first place, we are still kiasu and rushing for everything. People still keep right on the escalators, rushing to board the train when the next is just a minute away..

To me, i support the bus. Felt it drills the spirit of waking up early and preparing for the days' plans into you.

or rather i would cycle if i get my bike :)

Thai politics is another interesting squabble.. haha, isit just me or wad cause i enjoy reading the media coverage on that issue.

which brings me to another point: the hero and/or idol of perfection may not be always right, do not let him influence ur own thoughts..

I am still finding my stand. my life.

I need a beach getaway. Anyone keen?

Hehe. This is just perfect.
Sorry Sig i hijack ur photo.

cant think of a title

2010-04-02T23:45:00.004+08:00

Received graduation letter a few days back.

Fast huh..

Goodbyes are the hardest.

男人不坏,女人不爱..

true false?

i came across this phrase somewhere, lingered around for a bit and I'm thinking if that can be true.

sigh..

On more pleasant terms, I've made my first big purchase today after a long long while.. hahaha.

Goodbye to the constant thaipusam procession that i gotta endure eveything i put on that stupid Gspot. Hello Adidas. :D Better make my $65 worthwhile. and come to think of it, this is my 5th pair of booties in 3 years..

I need a beach, alfresco dining.

when it is down it is down..

2010-03-26T23:37:00.002+08:00

Results are out.
NTU seem far fetch once more.

gpa went up slightly :) but not up enough to hit the round number.

I hope the future is not too bleep for me, right now its covered by a layer of fog.
sigh. i hate the paper-chase.
Spend so much of your youth studying then start work close to thirty.
that sucks, but sg companies like papers!

A friend got it right: "In Sg, having papers just goes to show you are Educated..."

perhaps thats why the COP for uni is so high, cus everyone is forcing their way into it every AY.

累..

priorities

2010-03-21T22:56:00.003+08:00

Now comes the period of weighing priorities.
Hey i got some cash to spare now, and lots of things i want, but then there's always th moment i stare at it and my mind goes 'hey maybe i dun really need it, can save the cash & use it elsewhere..'
sigh..
gosh, i need to enjoy my life now when i still can man.. but restrictions lah..

I also would love an overseas trip, its like this bubble dream i used to have.
Not forgetting the precious outdoor gears..

damn, money money money, its a rich man's world..

I need a break, away from all these politics, nth to think about & fresh air.. Times when back at KK were simply creme de la creme..

crisis

2010-03-19T23:58:00.003+08:00

Guess i m getting the what-they-call it midlife crisis situation (as defined by a friend of mine)

seems like friends are on the depletion already except for those i see often for trng, zyphr, etc.. haha those u noe who u are lah..
might just be on the dip more, since enlistment is round the bend..

sigh. sometimes i felt my socializing skills are rather shallow too.
throw me alone in a party i would probably not survive i think..
Henceforth, worried for the coaching assessment too. public speaking there is abt being firm, precise & clear.. but then, boy i hope things would be fine..

OMG. I still got alot of work to do! no idea why but the brain of mine is not cooperating with me. the moment i turn on the laptop, i can feel the immense calling of the bed..
Haisss.. shag.

its a rush world i got.
damn i hate to get out of bed everyday..
hurrying for trains.
breathing in cigarette smoke.
can i get past one day in sg w/o all these pet peeves?

things not to be are not to be ba.
goodbye you

starlight

2010-03-15T23:58:00.002+08:00

"Complacency Kills.. "

I would like to remind myself on that. despite the countless recites of it.

damn shag out aft IT fair..
body clock kinda screwed out too.

was slightly disappointed with sales on the last day, didnt hit my target but then i still enjoyed my time though.

The verdict:
- china and indian man - everything also want, will argue and fight for all the as much free gifts. the most time consuming ones. -.-
- Angmoh - very good ppl. talk less, ask precise, close deal
- Sg uncle - alright. will want to discuss price but easy going and generally give-and-take. must be patient.
- parent and child - hor say ah, just psycho the child on the pros of it deal close.

hahaha, alright. time for bed.

seeing you that day was really great. :)
my fingers are still crossed.

2010-03-10T23:50:00.000+08:00

the internet is killing me.

sign for to go bed. since i finish watching my show anw.

i hope it rains big again.

this is lovely, really nice.

I love my whole world.

Thank You.

2010-03-07T14:55:00.003+08:00

Thank You Friends for hosting, planning and decorating the handover.

It was simple and homely. yet seeing the happy smiles on your faces and everyone all dressed up, makes the place up a notch.
haha, and also pardon me for being late. banks are abit of pain in the ass on Saturdays.

Also thank you for the card, video and photo. I must say watching those video moments & dedications, I'm a little loss of words.. very nice, and it hit me straight into the moment..
"You rock" thats to each & all present..

All d best everyone for AY10/11.
and ur studies too!

Alas, bon voyage to yutai. take of urself in china yeah.. :)

~ i like this photo alot! :)

Keep Smiling. Keep Running.

the greatest gift of all

2010-03-04T23:38:00.001+08:00

There comes a time
When we head a certain call
When the world must come together as one
There are people dying
And it's time to lend a hand to life
The greatest gift of all

We can't go on
Pretneding day by day
That someone, somewhere will soon make a change
We are all a part of
God's great big family
And the truth, you know love is all we need

[Chorus]
We are the world
We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let's start giving
There's a choice we're making
We're saving our own lives
It's true we'll make a better day
Just you and me

Send them your heart
So they'll know that someone cares
And their lives will be stronger and free
As God has shown us by turning stone to bread
So we all must lend a helping hand

[Chorus]
We are the world
We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let's start giving
There's a choice we're making
We're saving our own lives
It's true we'll make a better day
Just you and me

When you're down and out
There seems no hope at all
But if you just believe
There's no way we can fall
Well, well, well, well, let us realize
That a change will only come
When we stand together as one

[Chorus]

this sound really really did inspire me, alot.

We are all Mother Earth's children.

We need to start appreciating her, start protecting her, not sit in some office and just NATO.

*NATO = Talk Only No Action.

If you enjoy a job, its not called a job, its called experiential learning.

"Expect the unexpected" quote unquote

.

2010-03-03T23:38:00.002+08:00

Well, yea it concluded. 3 years of poly life.

today was the last paper, might even be the last time sitting for an exam too or at least for the next two years.

Strangely as i felt, the feeling after the paper was more demoralizing than before it..

Like nothing to really look forward too lei.

I've reached my crossroad now.

Goodbyes are probably one of the hardest thing to do.

Thank You SP.

i've initiated my move, the last move.

now its up to fate to decide.

*fingers crossed.

26.

2010-03-02T09:41:00.003+08:00

26 hours to diploma..

PDES and IS.. woohoo

I feel like i'm missing something here.. ~

~i still prefer this version.. and of course the one that mervin & laro did.. hahaha :)

Lightning doent strike twice..
i guess there's no pot of gold at the bottom of my rainbow..